Oh my gosh!!! I must have been doing some major detoxing this morning or something. I was totally miserable. Things got much better about an hour ago, or so.
All I kept thinking about was food. And it's weird, because honestly I'm not that hungry, and I wasn't hungry at that time either, I just really really wanted to be off the cleanse and eating like a normal person again. I also felt really really depressed. I didn't want to get out of bed. I had a really sour expression on my face, didn't want to be around people or anything! I was miserable.
I'm glad I passed it. I'm really glad I'm almost done. Right now I'm honestly not missing food. I'm just thirsty. I'm finally going to leave the house for today. I'm going to walk to the grocery store, and return the movie I rented last night, I may get another one, but I'm not planning on it. I actually just want to study.
The cleanse has been really hard on me. Mentally and physically. I'm good while I'm at work, but when i get back, I'm just so exhausted, and that seriously held me back this week. next week Hopefully I'll be better, and I seriously have go do a good POA and stick to it. I have so much work to do. Maybe after I'm done with the cleanse, this will turn into my Grad school app process blog! hehe.. we'll see.
no, off to the store.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Friday, September 12, 2008
Day 8
I pooped this morning. It was very weird to poop. poop, poop, poop. And, no, i didn't cheat and eat solid food. That was the stuff that's been backed up in there for like years, or i don't know how long.
This blog hasn't been as much as I wanted it to be. so sad. to bad. oh well.. maybe next time I do the cleanse. and yes... i did say next time. I can almost guarantee I will do this another time. =)
It's kind of nice not to eat. And I have such an unhealthy life style I totally see myself doing this once a year, unless I don't think it's working.
But I'm just so happy that it's the weekend, and hopefully on Wed. I'll be eating!!! Although I'm happy I"ll be eathing, I know I won't be eating like normal for another week. and technically I haven't been eating like normal for 10 days and another 6 days, so wow!
What's really funny, is that I'm eating vicariously through my sister. she loves me. my mom brought home some potato salad that looked really good. so I fed it to my sister, and she really liked it. Hopefully I'll get to try it one day. Right now she's eating carne asada and rice. It smells good.
This blog hasn't been as much as I wanted it to be. so sad. to bad. oh well.. maybe next time I do the cleanse. and yes... i did say next time. I can almost guarantee I will do this another time. =)
It's kind of nice not to eat. And I have such an unhealthy life style I totally see myself doing this once a year, unless I don't think it's working.
But I'm just so happy that it's the weekend, and hopefully on Wed. I'll be eating!!! Although I'm happy I"ll be eathing, I know I won't be eating like normal for another week. and technically I haven't been eating like normal for 10 days and another 6 days, so wow!
What's really funny, is that I'm eating vicariously through my sister. she loves me. my mom brought home some potato salad that looked really good. so I fed it to my sister, and she really liked it. Hopefully I'll get to try it one day. Right now she's eating carne asada and rice. It smells good.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Day 6
!!!!!!!
Right now I feel good. But that wasn't the story earlier today. For some reasons during the afternoons, i just fall into this slump, where I really want food, and I really want to give up. But overall, I felt pretty good at school, and then even when I got home, but once I was at home... things went down hill. But then luckily I went to danza, and I felt much better. I think the thought of danza made me feel better. if that's understandable.
Now I'm going to drink my tea and go to sleep.
good night, lets hope for a better tomorrow and then just 4 more days!!!
Right now I feel good. But that wasn't the story earlier today. For some reasons during the afternoons, i just fall into this slump, where I really want food, and I really want to give up. But overall, I felt pretty good at school, and then even when I got home, but once I was at home... things went down hill. But then luckily I went to danza, and I felt much better. I think the thought of danza made me feel better. if that's understandable.
Now I'm going to drink my tea and go to sleep.
good night, lets hope for a better tomorrow and then just 4 more days!!!
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Day 5
5:39 AM
Woke up a little over an hour ago! did the SWF, and already had 2 BM's. Given, one was from the tea last night, the other, i think was the salt water. I have about an hour and 40 mins. until i have to leave for work, so i hope i can get everything out from there. I hope I"m not too tired today. I need lots of energy for work!!!
2:36
Had an awsome day at work!! I had flushed almost everything out, and I hate to say it, but I think I'll have to keep on waking up at that time everyday, while I have to do the SWF. Which then makes me think I don't want to do it so long!!! Sunday or Monday will probably be the last day.
Then raw foods until at least saturday. and then slowly introduce grains and meet.
This brings me to the hardest part. What I want to mostly get out of this fast, is to be able to use more self control. This week it hasn't really been easy not to eat, but at the same time it has, because I can't eat anything. Well, when I start eating again, I'm really, really going to have to practice self control. Maybe I'm getting to far ahead of myself, but I really have to prepare for that.
My nose is still really congested. Boo
8:24
So lets see... I felt really crappy this evening/afternoon. I keep on thinking about food. I think these next few days I will definitely try stop thinking about food. If I've had the discipline not to eat it, I must surely have the discipline not to think about it, or at least obsess about it the way I did today! I'm going to do some search for quotes that might help me get through this.
I'm gonna head to bed pretty soon, considering I've already been up 16 hours?!? Crazy!!!
Woke up a little over an hour ago! did the SWF, and already had 2 BM's. Given, one was from the tea last night, the other, i think was the salt water. I have about an hour and 40 mins. until i have to leave for work, so i hope i can get everything out from there. I hope I"m not too tired today. I need lots of energy for work!!!
2:36
Had an awsome day at work!! I had flushed almost everything out, and I hate to say it, but I think I'll have to keep on waking up at that time everyday, while I have to do the SWF. Which then makes me think I don't want to do it so long!!! Sunday or Monday will probably be the last day.
Then raw foods until at least saturday. and then slowly introduce grains and meet.
This brings me to the hardest part. What I want to mostly get out of this fast, is to be able to use more self control. This week it hasn't really been easy not to eat, but at the same time it has, because I can't eat anything. Well, when I start eating again, I'm really, really going to have to practice self control. Maybe I'm getting to far ahead of myself, but I really have to prepare for that.
My nose is still really congested. Boo
8:24
So lets see... I felt really crappy this evening/afternoon. I keep on thinking about food. I think these next few days I will definitely try stop thinking about food. If I've had the discipline not to eat it, I must surely have the discipline not to think about it, or at least obsess about it the way I did today! I'm going to do some search for quotes that might help me get through this.
I'm gonna head to bed pretty soon, considering I've already been up 16 hours?!? Crazy!!!
Monday, September 8, 2008
Day 4
yes, i skipped day three, and i'll catch up on it later, but right now I don't feel so well. =(
Work was not good today, i had very little energy. I woke up feeling like I could sleep another 12 hours. I don't know what I'm going to do. I have a super busy week, and I need more energy.
I want food.
I'm just feeling really negative. I'm wondering if this is the right thing for m e. I'm gonna try and "hang in there" until at least friday, but ugh, I just don't know. I haven't lost any weight, my nose is still congested. I'm hungry. This sucks.
9:30 PM
ok, i'm getting ready for bed. Lets see I felt a little better around 6pm, after i drank lots of lemonade and water. I decided I'm going to wake up early tomorrow morning and do the Salt Water Flush (SWF) I need to get those toxins out of my body. I hope its enough time before work.
Not too many other updates. I'm just really tired, and I want to get to bed. I'll update tomorrow morning.
9:40
I've been on the mastercleanse bulletin boards, and I think I have a long way to go. Right now, I do want to do it longer, I think that there's a lot to learn about myself through this cleanse. I know that I'm goint to make it through at least day 11, but I think i want to do it maybe two more weeks, so that I start eating food again on a Monday. but, dang, no food until two weeks from now?!? that's insane. or is it? Cesar chavez fasted a lot, I can do it too, right? Well my goal is to be on the lemonade until at least monday, maybe Wed. I need to learn the lesson about mental hunger v. physical hunger.
But still: 4 DAYS WITHOUT EATING SOLID FOOD!!! I'M PROUD OF MYSELF. i mean technically, I'm almost half way there!!! but not really, hehehe. i'm excited i can totally do this!!! (i need to be reminded of this tomorrow. =))
ok, good night. enough rambling
Work was not good today, i had very little energy. I woke up feeling like I could sleep another 12 hours. I don't know what I'm going to do. I have a super busy week, and I need more energy.
I want food.
I'm just feeling really negative. I'm wondering if this is the right thing for m e. I'm gonna try and "hang in there" until at least friday, but ugh, I just don't know. I haven't lost any weight, my nose is still congested. I'm hungry. This sucks.
9:30 PM
ok, i'm getting ready for bed. Lets see I felt a little better around 6pm, after i drank lots of lemonade and water. I decided I'm going to wake up early tomorrow morning and do the Salt Water Flush (SWF) I need to get those toxins out of my body. I hope its enough time before work.
Not too many other updates. I'm just really tired, and I want to get to bed. I'll update tomorrow morning.
9:40
I've been on the mastercleanse bulletin boards, and I think I have a long way to go. Right now, I do want to do it longer, I think that there's a lot to learn about myself through this cleanse. I know that I'm goint to make it through at least day 11, but I think i want to do it maybe two more weeks, so that I start eating food again on a Monday. but, dang, no food until two weeks from now?!? that's insane. or is it? Cesar chavez fasted a lot, I can do it too, right? Well my goal is to be on the lemonade until at least monday, maybe Wed. I need to learn the lesson about mental hunger v. physical hunger.
But still: 4 DAYS WITHOUT EATING SOLID FOOD!!! I'M PROUD OF MYSELF. i mean technically, I'm almost half way there!!! but not really, hehehe. i'm excited i can totally do this!!! (i need to be reminded of this tomorrow. =))
ok, good night. enough rambling
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Day Two
1:27 pm
So even though this is day two, I think it may be considered Day one because I didn't do the salt water flush unti today, and I didn't have the tea the night before last night.
I woke up this morning, and I wasn't hungry. =) I hesitated to get up, because i knew the more i did the more hungry I would be. So I finally got up and went straight to make my lemonade. I decided not to drink the salt water solution right away, because I had to go take my practice GRE, and I didn't want to be going to the bathroom during that time. So then I made my lemonade and then went to take the test. Afterwards, i went to buy the book. I don't think it's too helpful, so I'll probably return it.
Right now I'm drinking the salt water solution. EWEEE!!! I had read peoples' comments that this stuff was gross, but man I never imagined what it would feel to drink so much salt water. I'm about 2/3rds of the way through drinking the whole thing, but I really don't think i can fit any more into my stomach, plus right now every drink feels like I'm going to puke. Not cute. Quite gross, in fact. I'll wait a few minutes and then try to take the rest of it down.
3:24
So I didn't finish drinking the flush, because when when I was drinking it, it made me really, really sick. I felt super dizzy, anxious, nauseated and everything bad. For a minute there i felt my mouth start to foam up. not sure what that was about, so I drank some water, but that almost made me throw up. Right after that I started going to the bathroom and started feeling a lot better.
Then while I was going to the bathroom, I read the book, and read the part where he said that you need to have the salt water flush on an empty stomach. I'll wake up tomorrow morning at 5:am and try it. because I'm going out of town tomorrow. Wish me luck, we'll see how it goes.
Right now, I'm going to the bathroom like every two minutes. but i've also been drinking a lot of water, because I'm super super thirsty. the salt water is probably making me dehydrated and my body just wants the water back. I need to not drink anything for a little while to see if i can make myself stop going to the bathroom. I'm supposed to go out with a friend in a little bit. lets see what happens.
So even though this is day two, I think it may be considered Day one because I didn't do the salt water flush unti today, and I didn't have the tea the night before last night.
I woke up this morning, and I wasn't hungry. =) I hesitated to get up, because i knew the more i did the more hungry I would be. So I finally got up and went straight to make my lemonade. I decided not to drink the salt water solution right away, because I had to go take my practice GRE, and I didn't want to be going to the bathroom during that time. So then I made my lemonade and then went to take the test. Afterwards, i went to buy the book. I don't think it's too helpful, so I'll probably return it.
Right now I'm drinking the salt water solution. EWEEE!!! I had read peoples' comments that this stuff was gross, but man I never imagined what it would feel to drink so much salt water. I'm about 2/3rds of the way through drinking the whole thing, but I really don't think i can fit any more into my stomach, plus right now every drink feels like I'm going to puke. Not cute. Quite gross, in fact. I'll wait a few minutes and then try to take the rest of it down.
3:24
So I didn't finish drinking the flush, because when when I was drinking it, it made me really, really sick. I felt super dizzy, anxious, nauseated and everything bad. For a minute there i felt my mouth start to foam up. not sure what that was about, so I drank some water, but that almost made me throw up. Right after that I started going to the bathroom and started feeling a lot better.
Then while I was going to the bathroom, I read the book, and read the part where he said that you need to have the salt water flush on an empty stomach. I'll wake up tomorrow morning at 5:am and try it. because I'm going out of town tomorrow. Wish me luck, we'll see how it goes.
Right now, I'm going to the bathroom like every two minutes. but i've also been drinking a lot of water, because I'm super super thirsty. the salt water is probably making me dehydrated and my body just wants the water back. I need to not drink anything for a little while to see if i can make myself stop going to the bathroom. I'm supposed to go out with a friend in a little bit. lets see what happens.
Friday, September 5, 2008
Day One of Master Cleanse experience
It's the end of day one, and it's been a day.
So I was inspired to keep a blog, after reading other blogs. We'll see how mine good is and if anyone even reads it.
So it's the end of Day one, and I'm getting ready for bed. On Wed. I tried to do the just fruit juice thing, but we had pizza for dinner, and since I wasn't going to be eating for 2 weeks, i just went for it. Yesterday, I did the orange juice thing. I almost completely stuck to it, but i started my whole day wrong. I only really had water until about 12:30. Because I was at work. I was feeling fine though. After work I took a nap, but woke up so tired and HUNGRY!!! I couldn't resist, with my orange juice, I had a few pieces of chicken, I mean i wasn't on the cleanse yet...
So this morning I woke up early, and made my lemonade, had about 10oz of it and made it to work 5 minutes early(yeah, considering i've been late this week) ready to go. I was fine until my lunch time around 11. my boss asked me how I was doing, and I responded, I'M HUNGRY. So then I just had some of the lemonade, and I was fine for a couple hours.
I've really been hungry the whole day. I think I drank more of the lemonade than I was supposed to. and I had so much water, but I really didn't pee that much.
This is definately going to test my strength. The rest of the evening didn't go so well until I had my last serving of the lemonade. After that I felt a lot better, and my mood went back up. I just hung out and read or watched TV.
I just had the laxative tea. I'm not quite sure how it works, but it's making me feel weird. I it could just be the diet. My eyes feel really tired. Well, i'll keep on going tomorrow morning. =)
So I was inspired to keep a blog, after reading other blogs. We'll see how mine good is and if anyone even reads it.
So it's the end of Day one, and I'm getting ready for bed. On Wed. I tried to do the just fruit juice thing, but we had pizza for dinner, and since I wasn't going to be eating for 2 weeks, i just went for it. Yesterday, I did the orange juice thing. I almost completely stuck to it, but i started my whole day wrong. I only really had water until about 12:30. Because I was at work. I was feeling fine though. After work I took a nap, but woke up so tired and HUNGRY!!! I couldn't resist, with my orange juice, I had a few pieces of chicken, I mean i wasn't on the cleanse yet...
So this morning I woke up early, and made my lemonade, had about 10oz of it and made it to work 5 minutes early(yeah, considering i've been late this week) ready to go. I was fine until my lunch time around 11. my boss asked me how I was doing, and I responded, I'M HUNGRY. So then I just had some of the lemonade, and I was fine for a couple hours.
I've really been hungry the whole day. I think I drank more of the lemonade than I was supposed to. and I had so much water, but I really didn't pee that much.
This is definately going to test my strength. The rest of the evening didn't go so well until I had my last serving of the lemonade. After that I felt a lot better, and my mood went back up. I just hung out and read or watched TV.
I just had the laxative tea. I'm not quite sure how it works, but it's making me feel weird. I it could just be the diet. My eyes feel really tired. Well, i'll keep on going tomorrow morning. =)
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